im the type of guy who does not let my feelings out when i feel like i do not want to. ive been keeping thigs to myself, make mistakes and keep it,love things and keep it, ive never let anyone know what im really feeling. maybe, i myself do not know who i am and what should i do. things that ive regreted will still play in my mind. things that ive keep will never get away.
my heart now fills with much regets and emotions. i do not know how to unleash it all. im a fool, to myslef.
i have never question this love. i have never doubt you. i always let things go your way, and even things get bad, i will still get back to you with one thing on my mind, i love you. that is all that matter even though people say things about me and you. im selfish. yes, i am. ive always let it go.
but,with just one question, ive got violated with vulgars and non understanding part of you. i agree with what you say. yes iam am stupid, immature, retard, fuck. do you even know me? 16 months is long but yet too short for us to get to know each other. ive never questioned you about things you've done. if you're happy with it, then so be it. its good to know that. but,melodies of noises keep playing in my head. what the hell am i going to do? i've regretted so many things, but this love, im never gonna reget it. people alwyas say, do not give up, and i never did.
i have always kept quiet when it comes to talking. maybe, that is who i am.
this is fucking fucked up. what am i supposed to do?
ive hurt you with one question, which ive never wanted to ask you. because, i do not want to end this relationship. i have always trusted you.
i have humiliated you and questioned you with that one question.
you know, im sorry for that. i really am.
I DO NOT KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE.
i need a breather. i wanna drink. give it to me.
im lost with so many question and no direction. ive said enough here. i could go on and on about this. i guess, ill keep it to myself, again.
guys, you think u know what love is? question your self and ask it again, what the hell is love.and when u get an answer, tell me.
do not tell me this fuck, that love is trust, love is time and that love need not be questioned. that is all bullshit.
im all out.
ive love you,and i still do..
indulging in my ownDREAM *.*
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